midcycle u/s tomorrow

Tomorrow is the midcycle ultrasound in the morning. I finally have felt some things. My ovaries have been hurting a little. I feel like I've been beat up now - a nice withdrawl side effect from the steriods. I'm so sore all over. So, I guess tomorrow is the day if we see if anything is cooking. I'm a little nervous about it for some reason. I guess I keep thinking both ways - what if nothing is going on?? What if there is something? I think I'm mainly concerned about my lining. I've drank POM juice here and there, which is supposed to help thickin. It was an issue last time until I started POM. With my periods being so light before this, I guess that's why I'm worried. Even if there is something, I gotta have a good lining for it to work. There is just so many variables - I AGAIN am humbled at how much of a miracle babies are...how many things have to come together just perfectly for it to work out. I am so ready to have another child. Today I was walking Matthew around the block and I just felt so sure that we are supposed to have another. I'm putting my faith into that and trusting God to continue to lead us in the right direction. If it's not meant to be then I will have to come to terms with that later. I just feel SO strongly that we are going to have another. Something else that I forgot is that this process feels like it TAKES FOREVER! Tomorrow is CD 16 and I feel like to even get to this point has taken alot of time. I guess because I'm counting days now again and everyday is "wait, wait, wait". I really forgot how much of a waiting game this all is throughout the whole cycle. Luckily, I've been really busy lately (which isn't going to slow down much) so that is really helpful. I don't have time to think about it much. In other life news, we put the cats outside yesterday. So far Lucky has stayed - Sweetie has been MIA. It was the best thing for us as a family to get them out so they are out. I hope Sweetie comes back - she was a good cat. I go back to work tomorrow. Summer vacation is over. I'm ready for the new year and excited for what is to come with it - lots of new experiences this year ahead. I'll update tomorrow when I know the results... Alison